Hi, everyone. Welcome back.
My story continues from my last post, Shields Up.
Coming out of a cold, loveless relationship, I wanted to be in a "real" relationship.
A real relationship where he and I share a life.
He and I talk about everything together. We make ourselves laugh all the time. We cook together. We hold hands walking down the street. We like spending relaxing time at home at night instead of going out. Etc, etc. It was so much fun to imagine how my life could be with the right guy.
At the same time, I had no idea how to get that.
All I knew was how I felt when I was picturing what my life could be, and what I had been doing would not work to get any of them.
I felt great to have that breakthrough of realization, but at the same time, I felt sad that I didn't have what I was dreaming about.
"What went wrong?"
When you put up the shields around you not to get hurt, you block all the good stuff too; joy and happiness shared with someone.
It is a risk that you lower your shields down, though.
But that's the only way to let people in and be able to share the good stuff.
Which do you want to choose, not getting hurt and being alone, or taking a risk and having a lot more love and joy in your life?