Hi, welcome back.
When I was single, I was trying to be invisible from November through mid-February every year; Starting from Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Year's Eve, New Year'Day, my birthday and Valentine's Day. I hated the question; "So, what are you doing for the holiday?" I was single and didn't have my family in this country, so the answer could've been, "Nothing. I'll stay in my apartment, order Pay-Per-View and eat Chinese take-out, alone." However, I understood that that answer made people uncomfortable, so my usual answer was "Oh, I am spending a quiet holiday. You know how crazy it's going to be in the city?" And it was ended with a smile.
When Valentine's Day was finally over, I felt like I was finally be able to breathe again since I was holding my breath so that no one noticed me to include me in any holiday conversations.
Valentine's Day was like a reminder how alone I was among couples celebrating their love for each other. I was trying to feel numb so that I didn't feel sad for myself. If I allowed myself to "feel", I was just bitter and angry about old relationships, or felt pathetic about feeling jealous of those love birds.
Some people tole me that I was supposed to feel happy and celebrate their love for them so that the happiness will come back to me, eventually.
Okay, I got it. It's the law of attraction. But isn't is so hard sometimes to feel happy for someone else if you're not happy yourself?
Tomorrow could be like that for you, too. It could be a complicated day. You are feeling bad, but you're not supposed to because you're strong and independent. You are feeling jealous about someone you know, but you're not supposed to. You feel weak inside because any affirmations sound fake.
Give yourself a break!
Feel bad if that's how you feel. Feel jealous if that's what you feel.
I believe that you will have to go through phases, and you're not going to feel great all of a sudden magically.
Here is how you can handle:
First, acknowledge and accept that you feel angry, jealous or sad. Take your time, but don't do it all day long.
Then, actually say something like "I am happy for them. It's great that they found each other and celebrate their love together." It's okay that you sound fake. The point is you're actually saying it out loud.
At this point, you might go back to the first phase, but don't worry. Stay there until you are ready to move to the second phase again.
Then, create a new thing to say by replacing "them", "they" and "their" with "us", "we" and "our".
"I am happy for us. It's great that we found each other and celebrate our love together."
By doing this, you are creating your future now.
Experience your future now by changing your words and feelings.